Note

Here I am staring at the wall
Feeling ever so small
Unenlightened to why
You left me without saying goodbye.

Sure there was that note
The words apparently frozen in your throat
Taking the coward's way out
Leaving me alone to figure out what you lied about.

The shadows that dance
Across my subconscious
Are whispering about all the love
That I thought we shared

But apparently you didn't care like you said
All those memories are just fabricated in my head
With this damn note staring me in the face
Gloating in how it allowed you to escape

No real answers and no real truth
Except to say that I knew nothing about you
And cry these tears and face my fears
That can only make me stronger
Now that you are no longere here.

No Paradise

I walk down this road
And I hum in the night
Wishing for something better
Something to show me this choice was right.

The cool breeze is brisk
And I dream of moments when I would wish
For just one more chance
To touch your lips with a kiss.

Clouds of memory drift in the sky
and I stare at my hands that waved goodbye
Knowing with all my heart
I left you and tore us apart.

There will always be this ounce of regret
This feeling that I won't forget
Those worthless tears shed
Pain and terror swirling in my head

When I walked to my car
Drove as far as I could
Away from you and where you stood.
I felt my soul rip in half
My life flash past
And here I am looking back
Gasping and shaking
Wishing I hadn't only thought of escaping.

No paradise for those like me
Who constantly run
Only a difficult path
Without you and lonely.

Back To You

Here is to this night
When pain is alight
Deep in my chest
Burning me away with loneliness.

I am laying in bed
watching shadows dance across the ceiling
and I know this feeling
has come to be my companion.

This torture is my bliss
Because with each and every kiss
You twist the memories in deep
And then leave me here
to remain lonely.

You tell me to go
To stay far away
And all I wait for is a night or day
when I can come running
Back to you.