And today I won't have to face it again

One day down... I don't know how many more to go.
I got new pjs and I had gotten them because I thought not only would they be crazy comfy but you would love them. And youwould. I have them on now. And you'd totally be into them. :)

It wasn't an easy day. I kept thinking...maybe you will call. Just maybe. But you didn't and as much as it sucked I was still okay. And i am still somehow going.
I thought back to freshman year. I have been thinking alot about you and me and what we have been through. We have done this one other time... Only it didn't feel so serious and it didn't feel like I actually would lose you forever. I mean i remember being terrified that i would lose you but it wasn't as intense because I mean we were only 6 months in. But now... Oh now honey. I feel like I can see these distant dreams... these thoughts of a future floating closer and closer. You are part of them. I know that is scary but you are and I would beg you on my knees to please not run from me.

You are having a hard time. You need time to figure yourself out... but don't you think that you might want me there? Don't you think know that I would do anything for you? I am not saying that you can just walk all over me or that I can't live with out you. I am saying that I want you and to some extent do need you in my life. You are my best friend and I love you. I know lives can go on without one another... but I don't want it to. And I don't think that it is right. I truly just don't think that it is right to be without you in my world. I am a good girlfriend and I am not saying I am the best ever but for you... i would go to the ends of the earth to try and obtain "best" status.

I am giving you time. And At first I could only think that you wouldn't come back to me... but babe. We love each other. I know it. And I will stand back and let you control your life but I do want to be a part of it. I don't know what else you could want...