Not Part of the story...

Keep me in your memory. Why wouldn't you do it? Why would you forget?
There are things I don't want to gorget ever.
When my dad would play video games with me. Diddy kong racing was the best.
Finding my cat Anik with Bennie.
Finding Bennie...The night his wrists were weak. The night of the cast party. The first I love you. 29 days apart only to come back and be closer than ever. A year with him. Hopefully more. Our first time. Every moment that he has held me...
My mom braiding my hair. My mom teaching me to mow. My mom teaching me to cook. My mom calling me T. My mom's hugs. The way my mom tells me she is so proud of me no matter what. The time my mom choked me...
Dancing on stage for hundreds of people. Ballet costumes beautiful without my tiny body making them less.
The moment my grandpa died in my life.
The moment my step-mom died.
The moment my father shot himself.
The moment I came to the decision to die.
Writing poetry and getting it published.
Fishing with my grandpa. Getting the biggest fish.
Sitting on my grandma's lap.
Getting my belly button pierced.
Prom night.
THe year I wasted but learned from a lying jerk...aka joel.
29 days in Europe... crying. Laughter. Emails. Pool. Paris nights...
Shopping with my girls.
Hope...one of my good friends.
Pretending that I am cutting the earth's hair.
Falling in the doorway...and laughing my head off.
Shutting my finger in the bmw door...then having to go to the hospitle and get a hole burned through my nail.
Four amazing years in forensics.
Being in THe Nerd...
Kindergarden. Mrs. Grapes.
My first chiefs game.
So many things. Memories simply slip away too fast. How could I ever hold onto so much at one time? What happens when we die? What happens to these memories. I hope mine live forever in someone...somewhere. they will know these things happened...